Happenings of Homecoming 2011

So last week was the best week of the whole entire school year.. HOMECOMING WEEK! Last year I didn't really participate and I totally regreted it. So I made sure to do all that I could this year! I went to street painting on Monday where everyone painted the walk way to the football field! Me and the junior officers made this fantastic painting (:

And thennn Tuesday. Well Tuesday was a really bad day. We went to Cyprus expecting to dominate considering how well we did last time we played them.. but no. We played 3 sets and the match went on for 2 hours! So so hard. And we lost. It was soo discouraging because it's Cyprus and we should just totally distroy right?? I'm thinking we just had a mental thingy going on and didn't even think we had to try. Well we were wrong. I thought I was totally pathetic. But we had to move on and accept it cause we had region on Friday. Thursday was he dreaded SPLAT! We as junior officers were in charge and yes it was eventfull! but we got it done and it was sooo much fun! Heard it was the best splat that everyone had gone too?? Well I hope so cause that was the goal! I also got to make some more friends, which is my favorite thing ever . And of course get paint everywhere imaginable!! If you are every realllly bored put paint alll over yourself and go to wendy's! The looks you get are hiliarous (:

Friday was a crasy day! We had tennis regions in Salt Lake and we did great (: we played against Highland first and lost, which in my book isn't that big of a deal cause they're Highland! But then.. we had to verse Cyprus. The very same girls we lost against on Tuesday. But my beautiful partner Melissa came up with this saying "act not be acted upon"!! Oh my gosh it's amazing huh?? And it seemed to work.. cause we DEFEATED! The perfect ending to a wonderful season (: My favorite part was my last shot I ever took. I was up at the net and smashed it down. I love that feeling. Feeling of power. Feeling of complete control. Ohh and don't forget the feeling of the last hug ever with Melissa on the court. I played that last game for her. I fought for her. Love you lissa! That night was the tailgate party and the game! Love my school so much. We played East and did amazing cosidering how good they are. Proud to go to a school where winning isn't everything. Where all kinds of people come to the games to support our boys. Where their safety is our main concern. Falcons all the way babay!

The very next day was homecoming! I went with my bud Braxton Rogers and we made some awesome memories! I was lucky cause he was so respectful and made sure I had a great time, which I did! Don't we look gooooood? I think so..

Went for a picnic at the park and Texas Roadhouse for dinner! I was so lucky cause I had a hilarious group and a amazing date. (: couldn't have asked for a better night! And I didn't even pass out! Considering how tight my dress was.. ohh well beauty is pain righht? Not to mention my red heels. I got my heels and he got his Ute colors. He was happy and I was happy (:

We went to Sparetime after too where I kicked some major butt in Lazertag, just kidding! I totally got beat by Braxton! But heyy I'll get him for it someday haha. I absolutely loved our group (:

Overall a very good week! Unlike this week.. tough times are hard to push through! Being opitimistic though. Well at least trying (:

Shouldn't Want This

You know when you have those days when everything seems to be going great? And then next thing you know life just sucks. Like really sucks. I should be able to focus on the thousand little things that are going perfect, instead of only thinking about the few big things that are going wrong. But right now I can't. I feel like the things that I want, I shouldn't want. Like everything is just so... wrong. I just wish for one minute I could know exactly what to do. I've never felt so.. confused and helpless. I just want my dad to leave and never come back into my life, but I don't want to lose him. Seeing his face.. just makes me want to disapear. It gives me no hope for the future. He made a mistake and he needs to suffer the consequences, but what are those consequenes going to be? I hate that it's up to me. Just like everything else. Just like with my "main squeeze" (tennis laughs save my life!). I just want him to care about me too. To want to be with me. I just want him to take me in his arms and make everything go away, but I know it's not going to happen. I'm putting myself out there, on this ledge about to fall for him, and yet I can't get myself to take that step. Everyone's telling me not to. But I want to. I'm tired of not feeing good enough, because I am good enough! I wish it could be as simple as picking the petals off a flower.. "he likes me, he likes me not.". Life: simplified. Ughhh so confused! Heyy fairy godmother?? I could really use you right now! Make me into a princess and give me my prince! But do you know whats even better than a fairy godmother? A Heavenly Father. I know everything is going to be okay. He will help me. You're probably thinking, wow this girl is really messed up. But this blog, is the only way I really get it all out there. Cause I'm too lazy to journal, sad I know! I guess all I can do now is smile, be excited for homecoming, and do the rest of my hours of homework! Praying this week will be grrreat :) Thanks for reading this stuff :) Have a happy Sunday!

Winning Isn't Everything

I have never been the kind of person who has to win. I'm not saying I'm not compeitive cause I am, trust me! But it hasn't been that big of a deal to me. I'm good at losing. I know how to get defeated and still have a smile on my face. I can lose with grace and diginity and shake it off. This week I didn't have to do that. This week was a fantastic week! My beautiful tennis partner and I won our first match against Cyprus! Wahoooo! We fought for it and it was worth all the waiting I have done to win. the best part is that we beat our assistant coach's niece! It made me feel like I proved that I deserve to be on varsity. Then on Friday night my wonderful school Clearfield High beat Ogden! Which is awesome! But not so awesome because a lot of the guys got hurt. I would have traded winning for a perfectly healthy team. Well what I am getting at here is that winning isn't everything. (ohhhhhh and I forgot my cougars won too! yayayayaya) Winning gains confidence, sometimes too much confidence. It makes you feel like your worth all the effort. But the best way to build your confidence isn't through winning. It's from walking away knowing you did your absolute best and no one can take that away from you. Winning in tennis was great and I even cried I was so happy, but I look back and I know that I had a great time and I learned from the match even if we wouldn't have won. Well I guess all there is to do now is to take what I have learned and go verse the hard times alllll over again. Looking forward to this week and the challenges it will bring :) I love tennis. I love my school. I love football. Will I love homecoming?? Well let's see how he asks me first! Crossies!!