Dream A Dream Of You

People always say not to take any moment for granted. Live like there is no tomorrow. Don't wait for a second chance to come around. Don't settle for a life full of regrets. That isn't me. I depend on tomorrow to make me feel better. To give me hope. I just hope for another day so I can keeping going. So I can have a second chance. Have you ever met someone that completely changes your life? .I have. Too many times to count. All these boys that I have let my heart fall for in the past suddenly are nothing to me anymore. Because I found a great guy. A great guy that is my best friend. A guy that teases me constantly but I love every moment of it because I know he does it cause he cares. He makes me feel beautiful and treats me like I'm the only person in the world. Your probably wondering "what the heck? does she have a boyfriend?" not exactly. Im just falling for a boy that might or might not be falling for me too. Scary huh? I'm putting myself out there. And I have hope cause he is different. I'm not the relationship kind of person. I would rather have fun and go on tons of dates and just flirt it up, which I do still plan to do. Don't you worry! But I love the fact that I have met someone so special. He is my friend. The person that makes me feel better when I feel so awful. That is what I cherish the most. Is something going to happen? I have no idea! I thought something was going to happen with half the guys I have liked lately. And guess what? It never happened. I think every single teenage girl wants to be wanted so bad that we make up little things that don't actually happen, so that we can feel like we actually do have a chance. "He smiled at me... that must mean HE LIKES ME!" hahah that's how it goes usually. Trust me I do that exact thing. I guess you don't really know until you know. Until you take that chance and tell him how you feel. And that can even end up crashing and burning. Putting yourself out there is always scary. That will never change. But with the help of my beautiful best friends and my mom they keep pushing me! I need that. I'm grateful for that. Now I'm just wishing and hoping.. and dreaming that whatever happens I will be happy. Cause right now I am so happy! Happy knowing that if he does like me he likes me for me. Not for my body, or my status, or anything superficial like that. He likes me for me. Well lets hope so and lets hope for a first kiss soon. I have been waiting for that for soooo long! It better be special. And I think it will be. Well lets dream that will be. Thanks for reading! XOXOXOXOXO

Sweet Sadies 2011 :)

When a group of people plan a dance a lot more goes into it than you could ever expect. There are hundreds of things to consider. DJ, theme, food, date, cost, decorations, assembly, royalty, the list goes on and on! You are constantly feeling stress to live up to expectations and for every little thing to go as planned. You have to worry about purchase orders and admistration being okay with everything. You have to worry about what money and money and money. But the best part of planning a dance is going into it all out, putting your whole heart and soul into it. Then walking out of that newly cleaned gym and feeling the weight just lift off of your shoulders. Knowing, that you did your absolute best. But it doesn't stop there.. cause then you get told that your dance, the dance you have been planning for months and months and months, was the most attended in ten years. Yah that makes everything you worried about worth it. Completely. Sadies was my baby and I'm sooo proud how it turned out! During leadership conference at Utah State this summer we came up with the theme Sweet Sadies. All of a sudden all these ideas went pouring out. We started to think about chocolate fountains and willy wonka and ballons and sooo much more! Of course we had to figure out how we were going to put all of that into reality. It became bigger than any of us had ever expected. We also had to worry about Juniors Week. It came faster than fast. Lightning fast. But looking back it was one of the funnest weeks I have even had in my life.

I'm kinda a nerd! I love assembly practices and lunchtime activties. I guess I just love being involved :) I also got the honor of being nominated for Junior Royalty! Boy was that unexpected! I was sooo touched that people would actually vote for me. Me! The girl who everyone said was nice and pretty but never really knew. The girl who used to sit in the quiet corner scared to get in front of the class, well that still happens sometimes, but I felt soo good when I saw my name on a couple ballots, but to be on royalty. Well that was a dream come true! Probably the most stressful of anything was the assembly recording. You see, because of our whole high-tech awesome world we do most of our assemblys like a movie. Execpt for when the cheerleaders, falcettes, etc. perform. Soo much easier! We did our assembly all about Willy Wonka. I was Veruka Salt and had to act snobby. If you know me at all you know I am not snobby, and I can't act. It was interesting!

But we still manage to have a fun fun time :)

After days and days of staying after school until seven we finally were done! Well until the day of the assembly. We are total bosses! Lunchtime activities went extremely well! We had..

Peanut Butter Jelly Wars :) where you had to feed someone else a peanut butter jelly sandwhich as fast as you can! got kinda messy.. :)

Doughnut on a string :) and then my least favorite, but most eventful! When the royalty got to get pied in the face..

Me and Syd before..

That was sooo gross! Dont worry I got ben back.. muahaha ;)

Went to fourth period smelling like old spoiled milk... I will never eat whipped cream EVER again. That is a vow I will take! Then it was Friday the big day! Assembly day! I was so proud of this hiliaroius assembly. My mama even came to see it <3 I love her!

I walked down in front of the whole school. Me, Rachael Fresh! I got nominated 1st runner up. Well I tied with the goregous Sydnie Adams! Geeez what a confidence booster! I was soo happy. Seemed like everyone enjoyed it! Well I know I enjoyed being humiliated. Now I can't walk through the halls without hearing "charlie bit mee!" ohh my. I love that :) haha! Now some of the weight was gone. All we had to do was decorate.. all night long! Ohh and in the morning! But we also got to do the guy's makeup at lunch! That was interesting.. :)

When we are all surviving on basically no sleep.. we get kinda crazy! hahaha

Now the fun part! Day date at Lazerzone, ice cream at farrs, dinner at Iggys and then THE DANCE!

I had the best time ever planning this dance! I hope everyone had a great night full of memories! Whats next for me?? Running for SBO.. wish me luck :)

Service Is All It Takes

Today was a great day! But it wasn't a great day because the guy I like smiled at me or because I bought a new outfit. It was much more than that. Today was a great day because I got to do some good ol' service. When I was little we lived in the low income neighborhood. I only remember glimpses of it like running through the sprinklers with my little brothers and walking to kindergarten with my friends, but going back still feels like going home. It might just be my over-emotional, sentimental side haha but it's always been a place to go back to. To think about how much has changed. How much I have changed. I wonder what would have happened if we hadn't of moved. I wouldn't have made the friends I did which means I wouldn't have been invited to come to young womens which means I wouldn't have gone to church which leads to me not being baptised.. endless possiblities! But I know one thing is for certain: I wouldn't be the person I am today. Well anywho as I was saying..tonight as young women we got to go back and serve dinner to families in my old elementary school. I was overwelmed with what I was feeling. I was feeling sadness for some of the families who you could imagine were going through a tough time. I was happy for those who were so excited to get a warm meal. Most of all I was grateful for all I have. My family is going through our own kind of financial problems but so many people are helping us. Our family, friends, and ward are taking care of us. Ohhh and can't forget Heavenly Father! I feel so blessed to be where I am now. We are all worried about the future but I know our time is coming! Great things keep happening and I can only imagine that it's for our own good. So we can learn how to accept help and give help to others also. Blessings are in store I just know it! Now if I can just get through this next week... JUNIORS WEEK! Lunch activities, announcments, sadies assembly, and the dance! Should be interesting! Don't worry I'll share all bout it! Annnnd take pictures.. hey you know me! Keep in touch <3