Changes Come In A Heartbeat

There are very few things that I can depend on in my life. People leave, and never come back. Family changes their mind and leave you broken hearted. Friends change and give up on you. You keep moving and life changes in a heartbeat. One thing I have always been able count on is office. One year ago I stood in front of parents, teachers, advisors, admistration, past officers, future officers, etc. I took a oath to lead the school the best that I could. That I would be an example and that I would work with my officer family with the best of my ability. I did that again this year, but it was a lot different. Instead of us eight, there were five. Five left standing. From going from our celebration of Splat and our success of Sweet Sadies it was insane to think that it came down to this. Five strong fighters who held on when times got tough. Even though I am now an SBO (Ms. Secretary thank you very much), these people, my Junior officers, will forever be apart of my family. I don't think students at CHS realize how much goes on behind the scenes. So much goes into making our high school career what it is. So much of it is little things that no one would even notice not being done. Sometimes it becomes too much, stress overcomes us until we crumble, but that is why we have each other. To lean on. I wish that Sam would have leaned on me more, Heavenly Father knows I would have helped in anyway that I could have. The pain comes in sequences. Anger, sadness, joy, but I guess it's supposed to be that way. I just miss that big guy and wish I could talk to him. I know I write about him a lot, he will always be on my mind. Always a memory that I cherish. Football is going to be hard, leadership conference is going to be hard, it will all be hard. Last night was hard. It's hard to think I won't have my SBO's to lean on. Chris, Dallin, Abby, Jake, Misty, Jenna, Ana, Megan, Tori, and Joe are such great examples to me and I honestly don't think Clearfield High will be the same without them, actually I know it won't be the same. But I know that they are going to do great things. And I'll have a cutt out of Misty to talk to all the time, haha. It's funny to look back to how things used to be and how events this year have brought us so close. They'll always mean the world to me. Next year it will just be us holding up the fort, taking it one step at a time. I'm going to be a senior and that is crazy. I'm so ready to leave, but I'm scared to leave people behind. What am I going to do without Clearfield? Besides the homework and the teachers and the stupid high school crap, it's a haven for me. A place where I can disapear and loose track of time. Where I can forget about all the stuff going on at home. Sometimes it's just so hard to be home, feeling like what I do is never good enough. But what's new? I'm excited to take what I have learned this year and have a amazing year next year. And we all know, it will never end up how we think it will. Hold on tight, it's coming up fast.